Joseph Adrian Perez Carrero
Birth date: Apr 7, 1998 Death date: Jun 25, 2022
Birth date: Apr 7, 1998 Death date: Jun 25, 2022
40 months Adrian and I dont know how to feel. I miss you so much. I ache for you daily. It feels like 40 years have passed thats how much I miss you. I want you home son. I want to hug you and tell you that im here. Like you did for me in my dream. I want more time, more hugs, more laughs, more memories, more I love you's. I miss your voice. I want my heart back. Im not the same without you. I need you Joseph.
Love mom
39 months ago today we both died Adrian, you physically and me mentally and emotionally. It weird here amongst the living, it feels like im a ghost without you. I miss you Joseph and sometimes I cant even put it into words. Its weird how I can even love when I dont even have a beating heart. I long to hear your voice and physically hug you. I know I still have a purpose here but its so hard to find it when mentally I cant even function. I just want you here with me and your family. Love mom
38 months today and it doesn't hurt any less than the day you passed. Internally im hollow, empty, and in so much pain and anger. Externally im ok with a new gift I recieved 38 months ago which is the ability to put on a fake smile. I miss you so much. My love for you has never and will never change. I want you home Joseph. I dont know how im physically here on earth. I want you home. I still look for you on everything and everyone. And I will never stop. I live you son more than words could ever describe.
37 months have past since you been physically not here but it feels like 37 years and hurt like it was 37 seconds ago. I miss you so much Adrian and love you beyond any words. I want to see you so bad and hug you and hear your voice. Time is going so fast I feel like im writing here on a daily. I still keep the light on for you and until my last breath it will stay on. I love you soooo much.
3 years wow. How does it feel that its been a decade already but still hurts like it was yesterday. I miss you Adrian and love you so much more. Yoir departure has not been easy for us. I smile sometimes but never like when you were here. This is not fare. You should be here with us. We are not the same. My smiles or what brings me joy will never be the same. I still have our family but its not the same. I love you so much Joseph.
I miss you so much Adrian. It's been another month and next month will make year 3. It's still not fair that I don't get to see you live your full life and see all the dreams you and i both had come true. I'm still hurt and angry at how life just continues normally for so many people when for us it's never continued the slightest bit of normal. I love you Joseph and I'm still looking for you in everything on a daily. I'm missing your presence so much.
How i long to hear Happy mother day from you Adrian. It would make everything perfect. I miss you so much and love you so much more.
34 months gone. How? This still feels like a dream. I miss you so much and love you so much more. Every day I wish you can come home. Your. Needed more than we can ever express. This still feels wrong. This is not fare. How does a child leave before a parent. How can parents continue to live with half of their heart gone and the other half barely working. I talk to you silently and out loud people think im a lunatic. I just want you back joseph. I just want you here where you belong. I love you.
27 years old how times fly but, in my eyes your still my baby. I miss you on a daily basis. I wish you were here so i can sing you happy birthday and see your funny reactions as we sing. I miss so many little things that once annoyed me. And cherish all the memories you left behind etched in my soul. I miss the te amo words coming out of your mouth. The how was work. The whats for dinner ma. The hugs the kisses the smiles the cries. The jokes. The list never end. I just miss everything about you. I wish i can bring you back i meed you more than ever. Even if its just to sit in silence although rarely your quiet. I love you so much Adrian and i wish you a happy heavenly 27th birthday.
I love you so much Joseph. I miss you. Time is going by so fast it's seems like every time I blink another month goes by. We are now on 33 months. Maybe because We talk about you at home so much that it make this 33 months feel like it was just yesterday. We all wish you were physically here so we can hug you. We know you watching over us. We will continue to talk to you until we can hug you.
Love mom